goodness

i still struggle so much with the existence of or the goodness of a higher being. i can't understand how there is so much hurt and painfulness in the world and people can still belive and lean on that higher being in times of pain. it seems like it should be easier to just say that nothing exists and that the world is as it is. but then that sense of hopelessness is harder to overcome.

i have a fairly easy life to be truthful. but i have many friends who have had such painful things happen to them and they still believe so firmly in God. i am a lifelong skeptic and just can't seem to get past that part.

i want to believe in something. it don't want to wait until the 11th hour (it will be too late then). but all my searching has only lead me to more confusion and grief.

the faithful are amazing.