anxiety

i was talking to a psychatrist at work this week about anxiety.

more specifically--my anxiety. i've had quite a bit more recently and really feel i cannot do much about it--i have tried various methods of drinking tea, exercising (though not so dedicated to this method), keeping myself busy and so on

alas i still find myself crying at work for no particular reason
(don't get me wrong, work is really stressful right now, but others are managing OK)
alas i find myself unable to breathe or feel calm

he (the psychiatrist) told me that anxiety may be something leftover from evolution--that sometimes we become hyperaware of what is going on around us (instincts) and this presents as anxiety.

i'm not sure i believe that so much, but i have often felt i am not quite meant for the world. which you can imagine can lead to a lot of anxiety.

my life is going to become much busier in january. i have a student coming, i tutor two nights a week and i'm working ever other weekend to save money for the wedding i am currently planning. so much for controlling my anxiety!