Thursday, June 26, 2008

News phobia

I can't watch the news right now.  I have such anxiety.  Maybe it's not  the actual content, but the presentation.  So dramatic, biased, minimally factual.  Maybe it's because I can't make an impact on most of the problems out there. 

Like many, I am significantly impacted by the emotions of others.  So when a news anchor is raising their voice at a guest or just at the audience in general, using sarcastic tones or just outright stating their opinion, I get antsy.  More than antsy.

I will whine and complain until P changes the channel.  I often say "I need a break from this stuff babe"  when in fact I hear and watch hardly any of it.

My endurance for the uncomfortable has really plummeted.  Am I getting older and more set in my ways or just don't want to do the mental exercise it takes to tolerate the info.  

I subscribe to Utne Reader.  It collects articles and excerpts from various magazines and often on controversial or distressing issues.  I usually love it, but I have been avoiding it.  It sits lonely on the kitchen table.  So sad . . .

I won't even go in to the many non-fiction books I'd like to read, but I'm sure will keep me up at night sooner than a Stephen King novel.  

I want to be part of making a change for the better.  I really care about healthcare issues, the environment, local politics and policy.  But right now I can't balance my emotional response with my action.  Time for a break.

1 comment:

yellowinter said...

oh, B. i can totally relate to your post. i've gotten a little better, but there was a point few months ago that i couldn't watch the evening news that would tell me about the horrendous events for refugees in darfur, or whatever else... i got physically sick and couldn't sleep. i had to stop watching it. i guess it's gotten a little better now, but i wonder if my mental/psych capacity has completely shifted. i blamed it on childbirth, but perhaps it is our age...
anyways, it's okay to take some time off of all this for a little while. it'll get easier to get back into it later on. i'll have to introduce you to some inane korean dramas when i come back to the beantown. :)